Things don't always go according to plan. That is something I have learned throughout my life. In June I was seeing myself at homecoming with Liam, the happiest and most beautiful girl there, now I see myself by anothers side, and even though I may not be wearing the crown like I had planned I will still be the most beautiful girl standing in the room with him by my side. But as I started out things don't always go according to plan and for all I know, homecoming being in January, I could be the loneliest and saddest person there. I might not even go. No one really knows what is going to happen we just assume.
We sometimes just hope for the best, but have so much hope in us we get blinded to reality and when reality hits, it hits hard. At first I thought my break up with Liam went as best as it could but I'm starting to see differently now. Liam loved me, he cared about me we were still going to be friends, everything would be fine, we still had each other. Well, like I've said twice now, things don't always go according to plan. I had planned for everything to work out, but at the moment it's still crashing down.
The little comments, the sneers and jeers, and I know it's both our fault. I wish I could just talk to him, I want everything to be okay.. but it isn't. I cared and still do care a LOT about him and all I want is to talk to him and be close to him but I don't know how, I'm still so torn up that he hurt me even though I know the hurt was only so I could heal. The only thing that makes it okay is telling myself he' doing it because he loves me.
I don't always understand life, but I try my best at it. Moving on is the best thing to do and I have my friends to help me with that. I just don't want to have to.
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