Meet Virginia

Why do I always feel incomplete when I don't have that some one there with me? I ask a lot of questions in my blog but this is one of those that I really just don't understand. When I am without certain people I feel as if I'll never be happy again unless I am with them. Every night after I see him I wake up feeling incomplete and empty. Is there anyone else who feels the same way I do, anyone out there in the world at all? I wish he could feel the way I feel because, not that I would wish this on anyone, but because it's so great and so bad at the same time. Being with him, it's amazing, I feel so happy and content, but with happiness comes sadness. It's like a hangover, it feels good the night before but the next day you're really paying. It does not make you want to stop drinking it makes you want to be an alcoholic. But what happens when the alcoholic can't get access to alcohol, they have breakdowns. I am the alcoholic and he is my alcohol, yet I don't have access to the alcohol. It's painful and I don't know how I could ever live without him. I never thought I would fall this hard for a guy, because I have always believed in power to the women and never needing a man, yet I know now that I need him more than anything and that if anything were to happen to separate us I could never live properly again. I love him, I want the world to know that, I love him, I want him, and I need him. There is no equivalent to the way he makes me feel and nothing nor nobody could ever take his place. He's my everything.

Jealousy.

It's not really fair to be jealous of someone you love because of what they have or things they get to do. I know it's not right but sometimes people just can't help but be jealous., always living in the shadow of everyone else. Everyone deserves a right to get their time in the light, yet not everyone gets that right. I have everything I want, it's okay if I share a little right? I don't feel that way though. I don't get the light because I'm in the shadow of my friends. Sure I get things I want but I'm not smart, I can't get into National Junior Honors Society with A's B's and one C but my boy friend can get in with F's and D's? It's not right, also, to top it all off, I never get to spend any time with my boy friend. Teachers, friends, and parents are always doing everything they can to keep me away from him. For example, last weekend I was planning on going to the mall with him and a few friends, we had everything planned out and he just did not show up, it turns out his mom would not let him. Then my teacher does everything she can to keep me as far away from him as possible, and today my best friend is going out to lunch with him while I'm stuck at home doing nothing, it's just not fair!

Gay Parenting

I don't know much about gay parenting, but on a forum, I got into a debate with another member on whether or not gay parenting effected the child's' sexuality.

If gay parenting affected the sexuality of their children, then there would be no gay people, for the parents who raised them are straight. Sexuality is an innate thing decided in the womb as a child's brain is being developed. It's not a disease or a defect; it's just a difference, and it cannot be changed, because it is decided before birth. The American Medical association and the American Psychological association concluded in 1971 that sexuality is something you're born with, and they also said homosexuality is not a disorder of any kind. So no; gay parenting does nothing to affect the sexuality of the children they raise. -SethH

I then replied

Well I believe that being gay is something you are born with, yes, and bringing up the point of straight parents does make me question, but if the way your parents were had no effect on you what so ever then we wouldn't even know how to talk. I mean you learn things from your parents, so wouldn't you first learn about relationships with your parents?


I mean really it would make sense if parenting had at least some effect on a child's sexuality. I believe, like I said, that people are born gay, but I also believe that some people choose it. If a parents beliefs and parenting is imprinted upon a child why not sexuality too?