My Life Would Suck Without You

You know how in movies where there is always the older sister living in her little sisters shadow and she is always jealous of her? Sometimes I wonder if this is what it's like for my older sister. I'm only about 2 years younger than her but I know she has always been jealous of me. She thinks I'm gorgeous, outgoing, and she's jealous of how confident I am. Also, I have a boy friend and had my first kiss, she still has not.

The Road to Hell is paved with good intentions

Today I had a retreat. Not very inspiring but fun yes. We started out by dividing up into two groups and playing Alaskan Baseball (which by the way if you don't know what that is it has nothing to do with Alaska or baseball) We also did some kind of tight rope walking where the cord was only like a foot off the ground but I took someone out when I fell.(Not literally knocked them out but I did knock them over) It was all much fun..much more fun than any other retreat I've ever been to.

It's kind of hard to get 'in touch' with your faith if the people helping you aren't very enthusiastic about it. Last year we had a different leader, Paul, who threw a fit the whole time because we refused to listen to him and we basically sat there the whole time not talking. This time we had some younger students of Lynchburg College who basically just let us do whatever, so naturally I had fun. I hung out with Liam(....ah Liam) and it was fun.
Have any of you ever been on a retreat? If so what was it like? Does going on a retreat sound like the kind of thing you would want to do?

I Would Understand

I'm writing a research paper on teen suicide for my English class and as I was reading through the signs of suicide I pondered on whether some of them were true for all. Here's a list of their signs of suicide.

• a psychological disorder, especially ,depression bipolar disorder, and alcohol and drug use (in fact, approximately 95% of people who die by suicide have a psychological disorder at the time of death)
• feelings of distress, irritability, or agitation
• feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness that often accompany depression (a teen, for example, who experiences repeated failures at school, who is overwhelmed by violence at home, or who is isolated from peers is likely to experience such feelings)
• a previous suicide attempt
• a family history of depression or suicide (depressive illnesses may have a genetic component, so some teens may be predisposed to suffer major depression)
• physical or sexual abuse
• lack of a support network, poor relationships with parents or peers, and feelings of social isolation
• dealing with homosexuality in an unsupportive family or community or hostile school environment

Now what about the teenagers that are not lonely that commit suicide? I mean can't children be under too much stress and commit suicide? I suppose in some ways these are the main reasons teens commit suicide, but everyone has their own reasons.

Do you agree or disagree with the list of reasons why teens commit suicide? Why?

2+2=22

Life is not as simple as it used to be. There was no divorce or abortion because things, like such, just were not acceptable. I think if we went back to the social standard we used to have then there would be less problems in our world. There's so much drama on television and movies it's like what happened to the 'happily ever after' of it all? Our world is so self centered today it's insane. I don't understand how a parent can give up their child because it is convenient for them? It's crazy. I am more accepting of teenagers who get pregnant but no matter what abortion is wrong, there is no exception. It is a teenagers mistake if they get pregnant they should not even be sexually active before marriage and therefore it is their mistake and they must live with the consequences. Or on the other hand if somebody does not want a baby there is always adoption as an option, but for some reason the idiots of our world don't see that as an option. Instead they are going to take a life so they can get what they want. Abortion is murder. There is no right to this crime, it is only wrong.

Dear Jesus,

I miss you you just can't understand how much I miss you it's crazy I have so many problems with you I just don't know where to begin. You're so selfish and confident but lazy it makes me so mad that you have what it takes but don't use it. I mean what I wouldn't give to be as smart as you and I know I'm not good for you, I'm probably just some distraction and I should leave you but I can't. When I say I need you, I mean it. I'm not just saying it. You don't even understand how much I need you It's crazy I cry when you aren't around and I've never felt like this about anyone, I mean that, not even Brandon nobody and I don't get it and I'm so scared that you're going to hurt me because you already hurt me everything you say or do affects me some how some way and i Don't want it to but it does. I've never thought of you as the kind of guy to get jealous, but apparently you are. It makes me think you're actually human, that's why I like it so much. I feel all my imperfections coming out when I compare myself to you.

Eh..

I'm very uncomfortable at the moment. I'm feeling rather moody and I don't like it. I'm sad because I miss Liam I'm happy because really there's no reason to be sad and I'm mad because of something stupid Liam did. All at the same time. I really hate it.

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What's So Wrong?

Why are teenagers so complicated? I wish all the teens in the world would just hurry up and GROW UP! There is no point in wallowing in self pitty and drama. Everyone wants SOMETHING to be wrong with their lives, everyone but the people who have everything wrong. For all you teens out there who read this and think "This is me, I always am looking for every little thing to be wrong in my life." Listen and listen good. It is not right to look at your life and want there to be something wrong when there a people on the street and people who can't afford to pay there bills, who are getting beaten, abused, and hurt. If you want that I know a good place you can find it so stop looking for stupid things to be wrong with your life and live in someone elses shoes for a while, you want to be beaten you can get beaten real easy but I do not want to hear your sob story about how your boy friend broke up with you for your best friend, sure it's bad but it's not life or death. NOBODY CARES! So stop caring so much about yourself and care more about others because you don't have it as bad as it could be.