Dear Jesus,

I miss you you just can't understand how much I miss you it's crazy I have so many problems with you I just don't know where to begin. You're so selfish and confident but lazy it makes me so mad that you have what it takes but don't use it. I mean what I wouldn't give to be as smart as you and I know I'm not good for you, I'm probably just some distraction and I should leave you but I can't. When I say I need you, I mean it. I'm not just saying it. You don't even understand how much I need you It's crazy I cry when you aren't around and I've never felt like this about anyone, I mean that, not even Brandon nobody and I don't get it and I'm so scared that you're going to hurt me because you already hurt me everything you say or do affects me some how some way and i Don't want it to but it does. I've never thought of you as the kind of guy to get jealous, but apparently you are. It makes me think you're actually human, that's why I like it so much. I feel all my imperfections coming out when I compare myself to you.