I feel so...vulnerable and helpless. I don't know what it is. I really really miss Liam and it's eating me up inside and it hurts and all I can do is sit around and cry because even when I'm preoccupying my time hanging out with friends or reading and such he's still there in my mind, and I miss him.
I'm so sick of loving him. Nobody gets it. They're all pissed off at me for talking about him so much and all I'm doing is making everyone including myself hate me. I don't know if that makes sense but I'm annoying my friends by loving him and I'm mad at myself because I should be smarter than that to fall in love with a guy, I'm only 14.
Love isn't easy, it hurts, he's not even doing anything to hurt me I just miss him so much that it hurts more than anything has ever hurt physically or mentally before. All I want is to talk to him, and I can't even have that...he's so busy and I feel pitiful for my whole life being him. Okay, so he's not my whole life but he makes up most of it and I wish it was the same way for him, I guess I don't know what it's like for him.
Is it stupid to be this upset just because I haven't talked to him in two days? I say yes, but I'm so miserable and I can't help it, I don't want to be, I want to go to sleep and not wake up until I can see him again. I guess I'm not in my right mind right now, but I just can't think of anything else it's driving me crazy!
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