I Want To Be Your Perfect Stick of Glue

Summer has started. So far it sucks, but it's only Sunday. I got into a....disagreement? (if that's the right word) with Liam. It was very upsetting... VERY you don't even understand how upset I was about it. I wouldn't eat. But I realized that while it upset me, it was not the end of the world and life goes on whether or whether not Liam is here with me to comfort and talk to me 24/7.
He told me I needed myself more than I needed him... I don't really understand what that means, but I can't help but know he's right. I'm trying to sort things out in my head, and it's kind of working, and I'm getting better on my own. I need to show myself that some things are okay and some things just aren't acceptable and I don't have to flaunt the fact that I don't care what people think of me by being rude and embarrassing. I just totally botched spelling embarrassing....thank God for spell check.
Speaking of God. He's playing a major part in my life at the moment. I know Liam says I need myself but I really think I need God. I've started praying more just I start out telling myself it will all be okay then I start talking to God about my problems and such. The other night I couldn't sleep so I just started talking to God and I asked him to make me go to sleep because I was extremely upset and I fell asleep. I know me not being able to see Liam every day this summer is going to help with the whole "I want you to hang out with me more" thing. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone else, but it makes sense to me. I hope that if Liam and I do ever break up, which most likely we will, we can still be really good friends.
My mom gets all nosey whenever I'm upset. (Quote=Kitsie)NOSEY PEOPLE SHOULD STAY AT HOME AND TALK TO THEIR KATS!!!(unquote)
She thinks I'm going to break up with Liam or he's going to break up with me. Like today I was like I need to go somewhere and have a talk with Liam and she was like you're not dumping him are you? I was just like no are you crazy? and she's like good I like you guys as a couple and I was just like oh but he's still not my boyfriend? Yea...she hasn't accepted that little fact yet. She doesn't want us to break up and she thinks we're a cute couple....but we aren't dating?

"I want to be your perfect stick of glue but I don't feel perfect at all sad and insecure flaw"