Disdainful Taste

Disappointment is a part of life. It is not one of the more enjoyable parts life, but seeing as it is a part of life, whether liked or not, I thought I should say something about it. Especially since so much of it has been intruding in my life recently.

Disappointment started in my life when I was born, as it does many others. In my belief, disappointment should increase with age, it should but for some people it doesn't. I was born into a poor family, in fact my mom worked at McDonalds up until about a week before I was born. (My best friend tells me this is why I love food so much). I never actually knew we were poor until later in life, my mom was very good at hiding it.

For as long as I can remember my mom and dad never were a happy couple. I vaguely even remember my dad living with us, when he was at home he never slept in the same bed as my mom, he would sleep in the recliner. The one time I actually remember my mom and dad sleeping in the same bed was the night before my 5th birthday. I slept in between them because when I was younger I never actually had my own bed. Since my dad almost never slept in the same bed as my mom I slept in her bed with her or I would sleep in my sisters beds. But the night before my 5th birthday I slept in my moms bed right in between Mommy and Daddy. When I woke up the next morning Mommy came in with a flower in a vase and gave it to me. That was one of the best birthday's I have ever had.

After a while my dad was no longer living with us but living with current girlfriends. Me being a young child who couldn't keep a secret, I would always go home and tell my mom about Daddy's new girlfriend after he asked me not to. So I suppose when my parents finally did get a divorce it was more of a relief than a disappointment.

Andrew was the first big disappointment of my teen years. I changed a lot for him just to like me, it would have been much better if he just had never asked me out, but instead he decided to ask me out so he could have a girlfriend. I was an easy target because I liked him very much. I do not regret anything but when Andrew broke up with me and I found out he never actually liked me. Big disappointment.

In truth I obviously was not disappointed when Liam asked me out but things since then, I have been disappointed with. I'm disappointed in myself for the things I do that do not live up to my standards and I am disappointed when I try to see Liam but it ends up we can't. I'm disappointed in my mother for the way she treats me and my sister for getting herself in the situation she is now in.

So yes life is full of disappointments, but if there were no disappointments in life then there would be no times to enjoy life.